I was really sulking it all yesterday. I wasn't sure. Am I really giving my best to life? I went to the gym after it became uneventful and just poured out 2 weeks of frustration and crap. I saw friends and Muay thai club and it cheered me up a bit you know. I got myself back up by saying, I can;t think too much about giving up. It's gonna be there but I ain't playing with it.
Why do I keep changing my mind between surrendering or fighting back?
I can't understand myself and I can't get my life either. One day I'm down and then the next day, I'm up like nothing happened and I told myself I can do more and will do better.
It was a hard day on Monday. I literally went over the time in my presentation and it took me the full 15 minutes to just get through half-way. I thought I did it right, no splits or whatever. I don't think it was any better than the others but I guess it's all up to God now. I got faith in Him and hope I can push through for the next semester. Thankfully, we rushed some projects and got it done no problems. We lent each other laptops, helped each other print and bind our reports and it came out pretty swell.
I was wondering half way through my choice of helping lead cg next week until Leah said " Wisdom speaks".....that was that....lol, I was thinking yes anyhow and I'll get on that.
Looks like Leah, Ravi, Hannah got a lot of stuff to handle now in University. I think it's just right some of us gotta step up real soon to help them out in Church. My cg maturing really quick.
BAck on top, can't get any better than this now.
