I was really sulking it all yesterday. I wasn't sure. Am I really giving my best to life? I went to the gym after it became uneventful and just poured out 2 weeks of frustration and crap. I saw friends and Muay thai club and it cheered me up a bit you know. I got myself back up by saying, I can;t think too much about giving up. It's gonna be there but I ain't playing with it.
Why do I keep changing my mind between surrendering or fighting back?
I can't understand myself and I can't get my life either. One day I'm down and then the next day, I'm up like nothing happened and I told myself I can do more and will do better.
It was a hard day on Monday. I literally went over the time in my presentation and it took me the full 15 minutes to just get through half-way. I thought I did it right, no splits or whatever. I don't think it was any better than the others but I guess it's all up to God now. I got faith in Him and hope I can push through for the next semester. Thankfully, we rushed some projects and got it done no problems. We lent each other laptops, helped each other print and bind our reports and it came out pretty swell.
I was wondering half way through my choice of helping lead cg next week until Leah said " Wisdom speaks".....that was that....lol, I was thinking yes anyhow and I'll get on that.
Looks like Leah, Ravi, Hannah got a lot of stuff to handle now in University. I think it's just right some of us gotta step up real soon to help them out in Church. My cg maturing really quick.
BAck on top, can't get any better than this now.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
The world's changing.
Michael Jackson passes away. His charisma and enterntaining music which changed pop music and paved the way for a new generation will never be forgotten. He was a the boss of pop music and dancing.
I can't really say my feeling here now. It's too private for this. I did read Faithful to the End by Gordon Wong. All I can say is that I need to stay faithful and strong to God especially with the stuff at home. Even if life hits me hard, I'll just get up and stay strong and smart. Faith doesn't just encourage us to be strong but encourages us to be wise not reckless but relentless and smart. Learn how life works and how we can manage it. It's not difficult; just hard to finish. The Win is there but we gotta take the long road to get there. I've learned it take preparation to win and it takes planning along the way to be assertive and that nothing is impossible when GOd is there. I learned that from a certain girl who knows really well that with God all things are possible.t Thank you to all my friends who's been asking and helping me out on the way. It's a day by day battle but I guess this is how we need to treat life to focus on the day at hand and not look to forward and get lost in our dreaming of the future. You want your dream to come true? Wake Up! hahaha...
Michael Jackson passes away. His charisma and enterntaining music which changed pop music and paved the way for a new generation will never be forgotten. He was a the boss of pop music and dancing.
I can't really say my feeling here now. It's too private for this. I did read Faithful to the End by Gordon Wong. All I can say is that I need to stay faithful and strong to God especially with the stuff at home. Even if life hits me hard, I'll just get up and stay strong and smart. Faith doesn't just encourage us to be strong but encourages us to be wise not reckless but relentless and smart. Learn how life works and how we can manage it. It's not difficult; just hard to finish. The Win is there but we gotta take the long road to get there. I've learned it take preparation to win and it takes planning along the way to be assertive and that nothing is impossible when GOd is there. I learned that from a certain girl who knows really well that with God all things are possible.t Thank you to all my friends who's been asking and helping me out on the way. It's a day by day battle but I guess this is how we need to treat life to focus on the day at hand and not look to forward and get lost in our dreaming of the future. You want your dream to come true? Wake Up! hahaha...
Ok, so my prediction of the first few picks in the NBA Draft 09 probably was extremely inaccurate, but I got excuses. HAhahaha! If you don't do basketball, please move lower to the sentence after 4.
1. I didn't expect Ricky Rubio to fall so far because of his buyout but the T-Wolves are smart. They're not trading him at all. They know they like this guy. I can also say their a little either smarter or dumber by taking Jonny Flynn. Flynn is a really good fit for the team which suffered a lot last season with their second year into the post-Garnett era. AL Jefferson falling to injury. Their coach gone and two of their top scorers traded away for Rubio and unproven center-Forwards. What I think made Flynn look better than Stephen Curry was probably his natural competiveness and speedy play and athletism. He brings energy and a rare mix of abilities that will help the T-Wolves solve their PG problems. Even if Rubio plays this season, he will have help in bringing the ball up. Defense, FLynn doesn't back down easy i believe and Rubio proved his worth in the Olympics. Now they just have to learn how to do it for 82 games.
2. I had no idea Stephen Curry was highly wanted in Oakland. The GS warriors probably had him in the radar incase Jordan Hill was taken but when the Wizards bolted for two new scorers., Hill was available, problem? so was Curry. No doubt, Curry is more ready than Hill to help a backcourt in need of firepower. Hill probably will have a good start in New York and he can do more reckless abandon down at the Garden. The Knicks need it.
3. That Tyreke Evans is a hell of a combo guard. I had thought Kings would go for this but Rubio was thought to be too good to pass up but I was wrong. Evans will give the Kings a good slasher which is not located in their current backcourt of Ben Urdih and Kevin Martin. THey can shoot it, not slash it.
4. Tyler Hansbrough probably is overrated but he's been underrated that a lot of teams expected him to go down. Larry Bird wants this kid. DeJuan Blair. I was looking for him all day. I was stunned when he fell like 30 places off. I would understand but a kid with a liver condition was picked over him.
well, long excuses and probably not understandable to the basketball mind so I'll talk a little of ufc here. People should really read UFC wiki page to see that the rules make it safer and helpful for a good clean fight.
UFC100:
My predictions:
Dan Henderson VS Michael Bisping
I have to say Bisping is the better boxer but Henderson is more well rounded. Bisping will have to look at his loss to Rashad Evans when he was taken down repeatedly. Henderson has been doing this for years. No doubt he'll be willing to stand and take some shots but he'll still be looking to mix his attacks with takedowns and wrestling. If Hendo gets it down, Bisping is in deep trouble. I would give a slight edge to Bisping as his camp has been making some noise with Rampage Jackson and team UK winning the TUF 9. I'll say Hendo split decision.
George St. Pierre Vs Thiago Alves.
Alves is a beast and big. St.Pierre is the one of the most unique and efficient fighters ever. They way he trains in his camp and how he challenges himself. I have no doubt he'll take Alves down a few times here. Alves will be on his back so he needs to stand up and defend it right to get himself together. St. Pierre will have to eat Alves punches because he will get rocked since the fight starts standing and will have to try to avoid those leg kicks which punished former victims. St. Pierre will take Alves down. GSP via submission or decision.
Frank Mir VS Brock Lesnar.
Mir has reinvented his game very well and he probably needs to upgrade it too against Lesnar. Lesnar is a pure beast at 265 outweighing Mir by over 30 pounds. Mir will have to work from his back to find submissions but will need to anticipate Lesnar's ever evolving game on the ground. His fight with Couture shows that a round with him is probably hard. He has heavy hands and will be difficult to take down. Mir is a BJJ ace before and is still. He's also an improved striker and could wear Lesnar down standing. Taking Lesnar out is possible because he still has holes. I'll go out and say. Lesnar via TKO or decision.
1. I didn't expect Ricky Rubio to fall so far because of his buyout but the T-Wolves are smart. They're not trading him at all. They know they like this guy. I can also say their a little either smarter or dumber by taking Jonny Flynn. Flynn is a really good fit for the team which suffered a lot last season with their second year into the post-Garnett era. AL Jefferson falling to injury. Their coach gone and two of their top scorers traded away for Rubio and unproven center-Forwards. What I think made Flynn look better than Stephen Curry was probably his natural competiveness and speedy play and athletism. He brings energy and a rare mix of abilities that will help the T-Wolves solve their PG problems. Even if Rubio plays this season, he will have help in bringing the ball up. Defense, FLynn doesn't back down easy i believe and Rubio proved his worth in the Olympics. Now they just have to learn how to do it for 82 games.
2. I had no idea Stephen Curry was highly wanted in Oakland. The GS warriors probably had him in the radar incase Jordan Hill was taken but when the Wizards bolted for two new scorers., Hill was available, problem? so was Curry. No doubt, Curry is more ready than Hill to help a backcourt in need of firepower. Hill probably will have a good start in New York and he can do more reckless abandon down at the Garden. The Knicks need it.
3. That Tyreke Evans is a hell of a combo guard. I had thought Kings would go for this but Rubio was thought to be too good to pass up but I was wrong. Evans will give the Kings a good slasher which is not located in their current backcourt of Ben Urdih and Kevin Martin. THey can shoot it, not slash it.
4. Tyler Hansbrough probably is overrated but he's been underrated that a lot of teams expected him to go down. Larry Bird wants this kid. DeJuan Blair. I was looking for him all day. I was stunned when he fell like 30 places off. I would understand but a kid with a liver condition was picked over him.
well, long excuses and probably not understandable to the basketball mind so I'll talk a little of ufc here. People should really read UFC wiki page to see that the rules make it safer and helpful for a good clean fight.
UFC100:
My predictions:
Dan Henderson VS Michael Bisping
I have to say Bisping is the better boxer but Henderson is more well rounded. Bisping will have to look at his loss to Rashad Evans when he was taken down repeatedly. Henderson has been doing this for years. No doubt he'll be willing to stand and take some shots but he'll still be looking to mix his attacks with takedowns and wrestling. If Hendo gets it down, Bisping is in deep trouble. I would give a slight edge to Bisping as his camp has been making some noise with Rampage Jackson and team UK winning the TUF 9. I'll say Hendo split decision.
George St. Pierre Vs Thiago Alves.
Alves is a beast and big. St.Pierre is the one of the most unique and efficient fighters ever. They way he trains in his camp and how he challenges himself. I have no doubt he'll take Alves down a few times here. Alves will be on his back so he needs to stand up and defend it right to get himself together. St. Pierre will have to eat Alves punches because he will get rocked since the fight starts standing and will have to try to avoid those leg kicks which punished former victims. St. Pierre will take Alves down. GSP via submission or decision.
Frank Mir VS Brock Lesnar.
Mir has reinvented his game very well and he probably needs to upgrade it too against Lesnar. Lesnar is a pure beast at 265 outweighing Mir by over 30 pounds. Mir will have to work from his back to find submissions but will need to anticipate Lesnar's ever evolving game on the ground. His fight with Couture shows that a round with him is probably hard. He has heavy hands and will be difficult to take down. Mir is a BJJ ace before and is still. He's also an improved striker and could wear Lesnar down standing. Taking Lesnar out is possible because he still has holes. I'll go out and say. Lesnar via TKO or decision.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
I'm just trying to become more of a gym rat nowadays. It hasn't been easy you know, finding the time to go after work especially when i was taking some meds 2 weeks ago. I learned a few things along the way like you need to push your body a bit to get stronger and you need not be ashamed if your not exactly dragon boat guy material or beach body material. Although it's always cool to look ripped and good, it's a matter of how you feel when you do your thing on the basketball court or the mat.
I played basketball a few nights ago and my shot was really off. I hit just one 3-pointer and was missing all my mid jumpers and i had a feeling i should have tried more three's. Too bad, I was having a good night cutting into the basket against guys that were a bit taller than me. God bless me, if I was a foot taller then , I would be playing for the Singapore Slingers. I knew my way around and split defenders to get to the basket but I didn't finish as well as I hoped. I missed a few shots I used to normally make and I ran out of speed early; plus, I got hit in the throat with the ball. It was pretty good considering that our opponents were taller and that I got a good breath of fresh air out of it.
Believe it or not, that small time on the court is heaven for me. No matter how bad I play or how bad i beaten up, I'll always have a good time. Basketball reminds me so much of home and family and how it deepens my relationship with my dad. It's almost a better taste than going to the mall or just out. When I'm on the court, it's just the shot and the game that matters. They say it's just a game and that's all that's in my head, just my game. I don't have to think about how to this or that or why i'm not getting to the goal and stuff; I just feel the game so well; I can just run on instict the whole time. If I play and my opponents better, I make sure he's not gonna get an easy win; if I play and i'm better; I still make it hard to win and just start playing with him a bit, like hesistating, fakes and stuff. I don't do it out of mind it just comes to me; as soon as some one tries to block my path or get close to me I body him up and start backing him down, if he's too far, I'll shoot a long jumper or drive close enough to catch him at the post with a jump hook or lay-up. It's too routine sometimes that I naturally do different things over and over again.
Happy dad's day to my dad. I'm proud of him in every sense of way. I look up to him and I love this guy. I neve had a brother but I have a dad I can follow in terms of principles and just plain work. thanks dad.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
An unusual fight
I didn't get to follow the fight between Rich Franklin and Wanderlei Silva. I was stomped but I expected such. A decision for Rich Franklin. I wouldn't be surprised if it was a TKO but I was like if it goes the way I imagined it probably will go to a decision. Too good of a fight to end by knock out.
Silva seemed to be looking more to slow his pace down and explode down the stretch. I like the was Silva seems to be changing his game, utilizing his ground game a little more to conserve that knock out power in his hands. His agression has always worked one way or the other. He either knocked someone out or got knocked the wind of him. If I had any advice for the next guy he's fighting, it would be don't throw leg kicks unless you can move your damn head fast. That's how he gets them, throw a shot and he will respond with a furry that few ever survive on their feet. I'd say let him fight the top middleweights like Patrick Cote or Thales Leites. It would be interesting to see how guys like Alan Blecher or Nate Marquart respond to another Silva monster among their division.
Rich Franklin? What more can I say? He's in a packed heavyweight divison but a win over Silva should push him somewhere near a title shot. He should fight another contender, like maybe Forrest Griffin after he takes on Anderson Silva(no relation), winner of Matt Hamill vs Brandon Vera , Keith Jardine vs Thiago Silva(too many Silvas). He should get a rematch with Lyoto Machida I feel as the theri last fight was like two or three years ago. He has too much respect and should be one or two fights away from reaching that level and he can definitely show up to the other lightheavies. Silva was probably his toughest test in the division to date and will probably have more problems against more mixed fighters like Griffin or Jardine. heck he might face the fighter he coached in TUF in Rashad Evans.
I got a good week out of this. Honestly, the only thing that keeps me going at times is knowing that when I make it to the weekend I got people at home and in church. I been fired up a few times this week just because I knew I had good people around. Any time I get something little or big, it just gets me fired up. Tells me to buck down and get back to work and just crack my head a little harder. I get the boredom part but I guess when you find something to think about, it just disappears. My brain's been working harder lately just so I can do something to keep it occupied, sky's the limit right now and I;m thankful to God for all he has done and worked for.
I feel maybe I'm letting my problems get the better of me and I'm letting stuff get the better of me even though I know I can do well. I know I can fight harder and hit harder and I'm gonna. I can't assure victory just that I'm going to bring a world of hurt on myself to win and work hard and buck down. Not gonna let anything easy pass me by and quote Dwight Howard "We're not handing over the championship yet." I'm not ready to hand it over yet and call it quits. I'm not going away. I got a lot of good people around me and I love them to death. We all have unusual fights and it's not easy.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
It's been war at work, peace at home, and even more peace at church. The weekend was pretty cool you know. It started a little sour.
Friday- I'd miss the Finals between the Orlando Magic and Los Angeles Lakers. I'm routing for the Lakers and Kobe Bryant as always and just saw the thrid quarter replays. It was awesome. He just did a bunch of things. With 8 seconds left, he took the ball at least 25 feet away from the basket, crossed, drove into the goal where he met three defenders at the rim and hung in there and switched the ball right to left to lay it in before the shot clock expired. Next he took his defender one on one and spun back and forth before jumping forward, hangs and double pumps and banks in while getting fouled. It was amazing 40 points. My jaw dropped when I saw the score 100-75. I didn't at all expect it to be that close. At the free throw , everyone in the centre was just going "M-V-P, M-V-P", the loudest I've heard in a long time. This was a different team from the one at Denver and Houston.
ANyway back to Sg, I took a walk, I don't know if it was the cold or the heat or my lunch, I just wanted to get out of the computer table. I just took a little lesson from my teacher/boss whom I say is really good at what he teaches and afterwards I just wanted out. I wanted to walk to the Crusade office first to say hi to my friends there but it was closed and i found Jun Ming, a part time leader at Crusade and we talked about what was happening then about the events they were having and freshmen they had and how senior year has it's x's and o's. On the way back, i headed for the library and found another friend, Melodie. i seriously, had not seen her and I thought she grew shorter or it was the shoes i was wearing that day. Anyway, she was going on a long walk up the hill so I walked her up and kept her company till we reached makan place. It was pretty cool to talk to her, she told me to not goof when i was during our ct's. she was doing all projects and she always left herself online so I'd chat with her for a minute or two and was being scolded to get back to work. I could use that again. hahaha.... anyway, great to talk to her she gives me a lot to think about more that she knows it.
After work, took time to hit the gym and put some iron on. I've been cleared to work out this week and it felt good. I did some skipping the night before and been doing light stuff the past few days. I lifted a few weights and stayed there around an hour and helped a guy with some weight lifting. My only regret is not having done running or swimming or endurance tests aside from shadow boxing and skipping a minute or so.
Saturday- Was supposed to go cycling with Taby whom I went to east coast with but she had a briefing in the morning and I had plans at noon. I took the time instead to stay home in the morning and headed for the Bradell to check out a sale of Christian books. btw, it's at yellow pages building and inside on your right at the guard post is the small door, last two days are on monday and tuesday till 9pm.
I had a quick meeting at church after the sale and pretty much finished the day watching The Ultimate Fighter 9 and The Seige. Slept early before talking to a friend online.
Sunday- I lost count of how many kids I was watching. 6-9 maybe? I'm just glad it wasn't 15. Got lost in the story line and pretty much got a little confused and here i am now watching re-runs of game 1 NBA finals. Before, we took some umbrellas from my place which is next to church to bail friends out of the rain. I actually just wanted to walk in my rain jacket but Leah just told me to share with her. They're a really cool bunch who I wouldn't mind helping out anyday. They've encouraged me a lot in many ways to stay in my ministires. They're involved in one thing or the other every now and then and thanks to them so have I. just really thankful for the people in church , home and school. Love ya all, take care fellas.
PS. not posting videos or pics of lakers. I don't wanna jinx them. hahaha....
Friday- I'd miss the Finals between the Orlando Magic and Los Angeles Lakers. I'm routing for the Lakers and Kobe Bryant as always and just saw the thrid quarter replays. It was awesome. He just did a bunch of things. With 8 seconds left, he took the ball at least 25 feet away from the basket, crossed, drove into the goal where he met three defenders at the rim and hung in there and switched the ball right to left to lay it in before the shot clock expired. Next he took his defender one on one and spun back and forth before jumping forward, hangs and double pumps and banks in while getting fouled. It was amazing 40 points. My jaw dropped when I saw the score 100-75. I didn't at all expect it to be that close. At the free throw , everyone in the centre was just going "M-V-P, M-V-P", the loudest I've heard in a long time. This was a different team from the one at Denver and Houston.
ANyway back to Sg, I took a walk, I don't know if it was the cold or the heat or my lunch, I just wanted to get out of the computer table. I just took a little lesson from my teacher/boss whom I say is really good at what he teaches and afterwards I just wanted out. I wanted to walk to the Crusade office first to say hi to my friends there but it was closed and i found Jun Ming, a part time leader at Crusade and we talked about what was happening then about the events they were having and freshmen they had and how senior year has it's x's and o's. On the way back, i headed for the library and found another friend, Melodie. i seriously, had not seen her and I thought she grew shorter or it was the shoes i was wearing that day. Anyway, she was going on a long walk up the hill so I walked her up and kept her company till we reached makan place. It was pretty cool to talk to her, she told me to not goof when i was during our ct's. she was doing all projects and she always left herself online so I'd chat with her for a minute or two and was being scolded to get back to work. I could use that again. hahaha.... anyway, great to talk to her she gives me a lot to think about more that she knows it.
After work, took time to hit the gym and put some iron on. I've been cleared to work out this week and it felt good. I did some skipping the night before and been doing light stuff the past few days. I lifted a few weights and stayed there around an hour and helped a guy with some weight lifting. My only regret is not having done running or swimming or endurance tests aside from shadow boxing and skipping a minute or so.
Saturday- Was supposed to go cycling with Taby whom I went to east coast with but she had a briefing in the morning and I had plans at noon. I took the time instead to stay home in the morning and headed for the Bradell to check out a sale of Christian books. btw, it's at yellow pages building and inside on your right at the guard post is the small door, last two days are on monday and tuesday till 9pm.
I had a quick meeting at church after the sale and pretty much finished the day watching The Ultimate Fighter 9 and The Seige. Slept early before talking to a friend online.
Sunday- I lost count of how many kids I was watching. 6-9 maybe? I'm just glad it wasn't 15. Got lost in the story line and pretty much got a little confused and here i am now watching re-runs of game 1 NBA finals. Before, we took some umbrellas from my place which is next to church to bail friends out of the rain. I actually just wanted to walk in my rain jacket but Leah just told me to share with her. They're a really cool bunch who I wouldn't mind helping out anyday. They've encouraged me a lot in many ways to stay in my ministires. They're involved in one thing or the other every now and then and thanks to them so have I. just really thankful for the people in church , home and school. Love ya all, take care fellas.
PS. not posting videos or pics of lakers. I don't wanna jinx them. hahaha....
Thursday, June 4, 2009
The world is different is every way imaginable. It can be cruel, it can be nice, it can be beautiful, it can be terrible; but most of all, it can change you or break you. It's not a good world. You can believe all you want that it is but it's not.
If you owned a country, people can either love you or hate you.
If you knew people, their either your friends or enemies.
If you had family, their either the closest thing or the farthest thing.
Truth is, I'm sad. I'd cry for those who have no friends or family. I cry for those who are pushed by many just because of greed. I'd cry not for the world but for the people. I'd weep as I see the disasters, killings, break ins, and mistakes. I'd cry for the friend who's getting pushed around. I'd cry for the bad stuff i see.
After all that, I'd still be smiling to first guy I know on the way to work.
I'd smile that I get to catch up on a friends life. I'd smile because even though their having problems they're not letting it get to them. I'd smile for the fella who gets support from friends and family. I'd smile at the bird on the tree. I'd smile for the beauty of the sun. I'd smile when i see one smile from my friend or even just on it.
Beautiful, Sweet, Cruel, Disastrous, and most of all, life's just plain Unpredictable. Can't say what'll happen, or when I'll cry or smile or laugh next.
I can say this, I'll cry when I see it happens and I'll smile when I see it happens. Life is IT.
HARD AS HELL? BRING IT.
oh yeah, so can you.
If you owned a country, people can either love you or hate you.
If you knew people, their either your friends or enemies.
If you had family, their either the closest thing or the farthest thing.
Truth is, I'm sad. I'd cry for those who have no friends or family. I cry for those who are pushed by many just because of greed. I'd cry not for the world but for the people. I'd weep as I see the disasters, killings, break ins, and mistakes. I'd cry for the friend who's getting pushed around. I'd cry for the bad stuff i see.
After all that, I'd still be smiling to first guy I know on the way to work.
I'd smile that I get to catch up on a friends life. I'd smile because even though their having problems they're not letting it get to them. I'd smile for the fella who gets support from friends and family. I'd smile at the bird on the tree. I'd smile for the beauty of the sun. I'd smile when i see one smile from my friend or even just on it.
Beautiful, Sweet, Cruel, Disastrous, and most of all, life's just plain Unpredictable. Can't say what'll happen, or when I'll cry or smile or laugh next.
I can say this, I'll cry when I see it happens and I'll smile when I see it happens. Life is IT.
HARD AS HELL? BRING IT.
oh yeah, so can you.
Monday, June 1, 2009
I really am starting to get the Christian life thing that God has been putting me through.
Having my daily challenges at school and work which is the same place;
keeping an eye as my younger sisters grow and making sure they have their freedom;
making friends outside of school and becoming closer to friends in Church and knowing them more personally;
finding ways to solve life's daily problems; learning that life can never go too fast even when your left behind;
knowing that even if I can't get back on track, I still can look forward to another day when I wake up to my radio cd player.
knowing that I have the choice being a friend to people;
knowing that I got an idea of how things change and that it happens all the time;
Sometimes, I don't know if I had made the right choices in life; I'm having problems and doubts with my future because i really wanna further my studies; I disappointed my parents a few times; I ran myself into a wall a few times, I lost my trail and my drive a few times; but, I'll know that I'll value these moments of love and caring that my parents had for me; I'll value the mistakes i've made and I'll value the people that care for me and pray for me and sits in the same row of seats I sit in during service. I value this times and say a little prayer for them.
Like my time last Saturday at Sentosa with my cell group FOOTPRINTS, I never threw a frisbee before and it felt weird when the thing just runs out of air or something; I haven't played a volleyball game in 6 years, but i haven't had such a fun time with friends in 10 weeks. that day will probably be one of those days I'm gonna remember in a long while till we have another one.
i'm having the time of my life and i know i can make it last. keep my head up high ,pray for the people around me, and just keep fighting no matter how hard it gets. i keep my eyes on the ultimate proze of life which is finishing 'The Race" which God started for me and end it His way not mine but His.
Having my daily challenges at school and work which is the same place;
keeping an eye as my younger sisters grow and making sure they have their freedom;
making friends outside of school and becoming closer to friends in Church and knowing them more personally;
finding ways to solve life's daily problems; learning that life can never go too fast even when your left behind;
knowing that even if I can't get back on track, I still can look forward to another day when I wake up to my radio cd player.
knowing that I have the choice being a friend to people;
knowing that I got an idea of how things change and that it happens all the time;
Sometimes, I don't know if I had made the right choices in life; I'm having problems and doubts with my future because i really wanna further my studies; I disappointed my parents a few times; I ran myself into a wall a few times, I lost my trail and my drive a few times; but, I'll know that I'll value these moments of love and caring that my parents had for me; I'll value the mistakes i've made and I'll value the people that care for me and pray for me and sits in the same row of seats I sit in during service. I value this times and say a little prayer for them.
Like my time last Saturday at Sentosa with my cell group FOOTPRINTS, I never threw a frisbee before and it felt weird when the thing just runs out of air or something; I haven't played a volleyball game in 6 years, but i haven't had such a fun time with friends in 10 weeks. that day will probably be one of those days I'm gonna remember in a long while till we have another one.
i'm having the time of my life and i know i can make it last. keep my head up high ,pray for the people around me, and just keep fighting no matter how hard it gets. i keep my eyes on the ultimate proze of life which is finishing 'The Race" which God started for me and end it His way not mine but His.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Yeah, i read that poem probably while i was in my sec 2 year. It pretty much stuck to me. there was also 'oh captain, my captain', ' the arrow and the song', 'I sing the mighty power of God'...imagine, I passed english because I memorized all these and I understood them deeply on how life was back then and how things sometimes never change.
i'd write my own poems and I'd probably never get it into Hallmark or a greeting card
Love is here
Never far from my heart
Or far from my mind
Neither too far from my ear
I can still hear the words and cries
Doesn't listen all the time
And life's work gets in the way
Maybe a question can bring me closer
Or end up in tears
It's never easy to love
Neither is it easy to solve
But one thing's for sure
It's there and crystal clear.
yeah i'm bad at rhymes. that's why I don't write raps
maybe this
JOY
A little too close for comfort
A little too far for thought
It's never about thinking
It's all about heart
How much do I want it?
how much can i give?
Everyday's a battle
Which i feel i can never win
It's all I think about
The battles and bruises
The weeks and months
The pain and joy
It's a person's path
A warrior's joy
A life that not many creatures take
but worth our toil for life's joy
i'd write my own poems and I'd probably never get it into Hallmark or a greeting card
Love is here
Never far from my heart
Or far from my mind
Neither too far from my ear
I can still hear the words and cries
Doesn't listen all the time
And life's work gets in the way
Maybe a question can bring me closer
Or end up in tears
It's never easy to love
Neither is it easy to solve
But one thing's for sure
It's there and crystal clear.
yeah i'm bad at rhymes. that's why I don't write raps
maybe this
JOY
A little too close for comfort
A little too far for thought
It's never about thinking
It's all about heart
How much do I want it?
how much can i give?
Everyday's a battle
Which i feel i can never win
It's all I think about
The battles and bruises
The weeks and months
The pain and joy
It's a person's path
A warrior's joy
A life that not many creatures take
but worth our toil for life's joy
Thursday, May 28, 2009
THE VILLAGE BLACKSMITH
BY Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
Under a spreading chestnut-tree
The village smithy stands;
The smith, a mighty man is he,
With large and sinewy hands;
And the muscles of his brawny arms
Are strong as iron band.
Under a spreading chestnut-tree
The village smithy stands;
The smith, a mighty man is he,
With large and sinewy hands;
And the muscles of his brawny arms
Are strong as iron band.
His hair is crisp, and black, and long, His face is like the tan;His brow is wet with honest sweat, He earns whate'er he can,And looks the whole world in the face, For he owes not any man.
Week in, week out, from morn till night, You can hear his bellows blow;You can hear him swing his heavy sledge, With measured beat and slow,Like a sexton ringing the village bell, When the evening sun is low.
And children coming home from school Look in at the open door;They love to see the flaming forge, And bear the bellows roar,And catch the burning sparks that fly Like chaff from a threshing-floor.
He goes on Sunday to the church, And sits among his boys;He hears the parson pray and preach, He hears his daughter's voice,Singing in the village choir, And it makes his heart rejoice.
It sounds to him like her mother's voice, Singing in Paradise!He needs must think of her once more, How in the grave she lies;And with his hard, rough hand he wipes A tear out of his eyes.
Toiling,--rejoicing,--sorrowing, Onward through life he goes;Each morning sees some task begin, Each evening sees it closeSomething attempted, something done, Has earned a night's repose.
Thanks, thanks to thee, my worthy friend,For the lesson thou hast taught!Thus at the flaming forge of life Our fortunes must be wrought;Thus on its sounding anvil shaped Each burning deed and thought.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Chuck Liddell. The Iceman.
The first big name I ever heard since watching MMA. Honestly, I never saw him fight till I saw hime fight Rashad Evans, where he got knocked out. I wasn't a big fan of stand up fights back then. I actually prefered watching dominant wrestlers and ground and pound games ;but watching some of Chuck Liddell's higlights made me change my view of MMA. To him, it wasn't just about fighting the right opponent but simply taking it to wherever he leads them. I have great respect to MMA fighters because of Tito Ortiz and Quinton Rampage Jackson and Liddell.
Why?
These are the kind of fighters who i first saw and faught anyone available and it didn't matter if they'd lose, they'd fight the next guy right away.
Ortiz. I feel he still has a lot of fight left in him and he'll be a good match to Renato Babalu Sobral. He has really good ground and pound and he'd stand up if needed. He'd take people to the ground most of the time but always gave his opponents a hard fight. He also I feel was the most impressive in the Celebrity Apprentice. He's no sissy in business and proves he is not afraid to lose. He just wants to fight.
Rampage. He's also like Ortiz but he'll keep it standing more than the ground and pound stuff. He never has a boring fight. He'll keep pushing his opponent and you bet anyone who comes into the cage with him will be instantly scared of those hands which took out Liddell and Wanderlei Silva. His list of victims also included Dan Henderson who's been know to take tough punishment. He fought all kinds of fighters, wrestlers , kick boxers and unorthodox. He doesn't take a lost well and he proved that by improving his overall camp training and conditioning which was evident when he defeated Keith Jardine. He probably should get the next shot and somewhere down the road fight the other man that took out Liddell, Mauricio Shogun Rua.
Liddell. Whatelse is there to say? He was a wrestler turned Kickboxer and used his power to strike fear in his opponents. He built a legacy of stand up fighters and showed the old-fashioned style of no fear and take on all opponents. He'd strike fear into the eyes of his opponents just by stepping in. Only a few were either brave enough or stupid enough risk getting ko'd by his deadly counter right. People should be respectfulof his accomplishments which includes wins over Ortiz, Randy Couture, Sobral, Jeremy Horn, Victor Belfort, Vernon White, Kevin Randleman, Guy Metzer, and a list of victims. Today, we see so many fighters who follow in Liddell's foot steps in terms of style or dominance. Liddell was and will forever be one of a kind. A man who had no fear and was ready to fight in the octagon. A fighting life is about to end but a fighting style which raised the bar to a whole new level.
Our generation has raised a new bar and we need to get there. There aren't many Chuck Liddell's out there. Someone who has the abitlity to raise the bar in a sport that it forces the wrestler to learn to box or the muay thai to start rolling in BJJ and train with wrestlers.
Rest assured this is not our purpose in life. Neither should it be. Liddell just wanted to fight. We just want to study. We may not get the same stuff we usually get but we will win just by working hard and running everyday to get to the next level. Step by step people step by step
The first big name I ever heard since watching MMA. Honestly, I never saw him fight till I saw hime fight Rashad Evans, where he got knocked out. I wasn't a big fan of stand up fights back then. I actually prefered watching dominant wrestlers and ground and pound games ;but watching some of Chuck Liddell's higlights made me change my view of MMA. To him, it wasn't just about fighting the right opponent but simply taking it to wherever he leads them. I have great respect to MMA fighters because of Tito Ortiz and Quinton Rampage Jackson and Liddell.
Why?
These are the kind of fighters who i first saw and faught anyone available and it didn't matter if they'd lose, they'd fight the next guy right away.
Ortiz. I feel he still has a lot of fight left in him and he'll be a good match to Renato Babalu Sobral. He has really good ground and pound and he'd stand up if needed. He'd take people to the ground most of the time but always gave his opponents a hard fight. He also I feel was the most impressive in the Celebrity Apprentice. He's no sissy in business and proves he is not afraid to lose. He just wants to fight.
Rampage. He's also like Ortiz but he'll keep it standing more than the ground and pound stuff. He never has a boring fight. He'll keep pushing his opponent and you bet anyone who comes into the cage with him will be instantly scared of those hands which took out Liddell and Wanderlei Silva. His list of victims also included Dan Henderson who's been know to take tough punishment. He fought all kinds of fighters, wrestlers , kick boxers and unorthodox. He doesn't take a lost well and he proved that by improving his overall camp training and conditioning which was evident when he defeated Keith Jardine. He probably should get the next shot and somewhere down the road fight the other man that took out Liddell, Mauricio Shogun Rua.
Liddell. Whatelse is there to say? He was a wrestler turned Kickboxer and used his power to strike fear in his opponents. He built a legacy of stand up fighters and showed the old-fashioned style of no fear and take on all opponents. He'd strike fear into the eyes of his opponents just by stepping in. Only a few were either brave enough or stupid enough risk getting ko'd by his deadly counter right. People should be respectfulof his accomplishments which includes wins over Ortiz, Randy Couture, Sobral, Jeremy Horn, Victor Belfort, Vernon White, Kevin Randleman, Guy Metzer, and a list of victims. Today, we see so many fighters who follow in Liddell's foot steps in terms of style or dominance. Liddell was and will forever be one of a kind. A man who had no fear and was ready to fight in the octagon. A fighting life is about to end but a fighting style which raised the bar to a whole new level.
Our generation has raised a new bar and we need to get there. There aren't many Chuck Liddell's out there. Someone who has the abitlity to raise the bar in a sport that it forces the wrestler to learn to box or the muay thai to start rolling in BJJ and train with wrestlers.
Rest assured this is not our purpose in life. Neither should it be. Liddell just wanted to fight. We just want to study. We may not get the same stuff we usually get but we will win just by working hard and running everyday to get to the next level. Step by step people step by step
Thursday, April 2, 2009
It's been pretty rough. I've been sick before but not in a long time so I've forgotten pretty much how painful this is, especially, after a few aches here and there.
My right leg feels really bad. It's got a nagging pain in it and been there since morning. Even while carrying some heavy equipment, I'm pretty happy that my supervisor allowed me to use the rest of the day to rest. I got another long sleep and feels like hell.
Anyway, I'm not the only ones who had a bad day. Dozens lose their job, loved ones, got caught in traffic, poked in the eye, and etc. My friends are having their university applications now so I'm praying they'll make it. Time is even more precious now. That's why I hate being sick. I miss classes, trainings, and it's shit trying to get better. I rather go all out and die in the end of the day.
On the good side, I get to spend time with my little sisters and catch up on the sleep I often lose and gives my other pains time to heal without getting stressed.
I do hope my friends can get in. Right now one of them, she's applying for Accountancy and in her blog she's thinking about SMU and NTU and she hears a lot different things, when that happens I know from experience that it can get really confusing. People say one thing and another says another.
Truth is there's no easy path or perefect style and that we have to go to where we relate the best. When I went to Ngee Ann Polytechnic, the teacher gave me a tour and when I had concerns about what I could learn and my opportunities he answered my questions properly and well. I felt I could relate to this student body and challenge myself.
I hear University is harder. You have to show your portfolios, interview, CCA records, and good grades. Ravi right now is in National Service. I'm praying nothing goes wrong because he needs time to apply and he only has Saturdays. He's applying for medicine.
I love my friends to death and I do hope they get into their spots but it's God's will now and I'm supporting them all the way.
My right leg feels really bad. It's got a nagging pain in it and been there since morning. Even while carrying some heavy equipment, I'm pretty happy that my supervisor allowed me to use the rest of the day to rest. I got another long sleep and feels like hell.
Anyway, I'm not the only ones who had a bad day. Dozens lose their job, loved ones, got caught in traffic, poked in the eye, and etc. My friends are having their university applications now so I'm praying they'll make it. Time is even more precious now. That's why I hate being sick. I miss classes, trainings, and it's shit trying to get better. I rather go all out and die in the end of the day.
On the good side, I get to spend time with my little sisters and catch up on the sleep I often lose and gives my other pains time to heal without getting stressed.
I do hope my friends can get in. Right now one of them, she's applying for Accountancy and in her blog she's thinking about SMU and NTU and she hears a lot different things, when that happens I know from experience that it can get really confusing. People say one thing and another says another.
Truth is there's no easy path or perefect style and that we have to go to where we relate the best. When I went to Ngee Ann Polytechnic, the teacher gave me a tour and when I had concerns about what I could learn and my opportunities he answered my questions properly and well. I felt I could relate to this student body and challenge myself.
I hear University is harder. You have to show your portfolios, interview, CCA records, and good grades. Ravi right now is in National Service. I'm praying nothing goes wrong because he needs time to apply and he only has Saturdays. He's applying for medicine.
I love my friends to death and I do hope they get into their spots but it's God's will now and I'm supporting them all the way.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Patterns
They hide the truth.
They distract us from our true intent.
Often times they need to be solved, sometimes they need to be thought through and through. People have said that they don't need a rocket scientists to untie a knot.
Once there was the Gordian Knot, which was famously could not be solved, Alexander the Great however would not allow such a small thing to stand in his way. He didn't try to untie it from the pole or even touch it; instead he sliced it in half with his sword. He would not allow such a small thing to stand in his way of greatness.
Boxers often use an unusual technique of bob and weeve. They would leave a slide of their face or chin open to confuse their opponent. As they move left and right, they continually bob their head in and out of their opponents reach or strikes. They would then use looping punches to strike their opponent in hard to reach areas such as the temple or the rib cage.
Nowadays, bob and weeve is only effective when used over and over again in fights. Speed is not everything, the user must be able to analyse and predict his opponents punches and he must constantly change his pattern until the opponent falls into his confusing dance.
Why is it effective? Imagine trying to hit a target that is moving and you feel your very close to hitting it yet you continue to miss over and over again, would you quit? Sometimes yes, sometimes no ; yet it is often that we do keep trying over and over again to hit the pattern. Sooner or later it falls into a cycle until the striker realise it's too late or time is up.
Yes, repeating patterns are often distractions. They sometimes hide our goal or true intent yet the bib and weeve has it weakness. The user will soon realise that his movements become too evident and too noticeable. The opponent is then able to calculate roughly when or how far the user moves in.
The weakness of patterns is that it reveals itself too easily. My friend gave me the idea when I and her fell into a cycle. Work hard and fall short, but such things are just bad luck. Maybe we did something wrong, maybe we're reading something wrong.
However, Possibilities are endless outside of this pattern.
Bob and weeve has one final weekness, thinking outside the box. By ignoring or disregarding the pattern, we can do whatever we want. We can focus on what we want to do.
The world doesn't control our lives, it merely creates circumstances where we feel we can't win or hit or excel. We can choose what we want to do in such circumstances.
Sure it gets harder when it's older but truth is my friend, it'll pay off. Hard work pays off one way or the other. It maybe achievement or ethic or habit but it's a habit worth picking up.
Nothing we do is ever useless. Everytime we work hard, it's never useless. It may not reflect on our results but it definitly reflects in our scars, memories, notes, journals, diaries, words, our heart, our mind, and our attitude.
It's not how whether we achieve or not but how we tried to achieve and how we can make ourselves better from trying.
Win or lose, learn to change and never fear failure.
They hide the truth.
They distract us from our true intent.
Often times they need to be solved, sometimes they need to be thought through and through. People have said that they don't need a rocket scientists to untie a knot.
Once there was the Gordian Knot, which was famously could not be solved, Alexander the Great however would not allow such a small thing to stand in his way. He didn't try to untie it from the pole or even touch it; instead he sliced it in half with his sword. He would not allow such a small thing to stand in his way of greatness.
Boxers often use an unusual technique of bob and weeve. They would leave a slide of their face or chin open to confuse their opponent. As they move left and right, they continually bob their head in and out of their opponents reach or strikes. They would then use looping punches to strike their opponent in hard to reach areas such as the temple or the rib cage.
Nowadays, bob and weeve is only effective when used over and over again in fights. Speed is not everything, the user must be able to analyse and predict his opponents punches and he must constantly change his pattern until the opponent falls into his confusing dance.
Why is it effective? Imagine trying to hit a target that is moving and you feel your very close to hitting it yet you continue to miss over and over again, would you quit? Sometimes yes, sometimes no ; yet it is often that we do keep trying over and over again to hit the pattern. Sooner or later it falls into a cycle until the striker realise it's too late or time is up.
Yes, repeating patterns are often distractions. They sometimes hide our goal or true intent yet the bib and weeve has it weakness. The user will soon realise that his movements become too evident and too noticeable. The opponent is then able to calculate roughly when or how far the user moves in.
The weakness of patterns is that it reveals itself too easily. My friend gave me the idea when I and her fell into a cycle. Work hard and fall short, but such things are just bad luck. Maybe we did something wrong, maybe we're reading something wrong.
However, Possibilities are endless outside of this pattern.
Bob and weeve has one final weekness, thinking outside the box. By ignoring or disregarding the pattern, we can do whatever we want. We can focus on what we want to do.
The world doesn't control our lives, it merely creates circumstances where we feel we can't win or hit or excel. We can choose what we want to do in such circumstances.
Sure it gets harder when it's older but truth is my friend, it'll pay off. Hard work pays off one way or the other. It maybe achievement or ethic or habit but it's a habit worth picking up.
Nothing we do is ever useless. Everytime we work hard, it's never useless. It may not reflect on our results but it definitly reflects in our scars, memories, notes, journals, diaries, words, our heart, our mind, and our attitude.
It's not how whether we achieve or not but how we tried to achieve and how we can make ourselves better from trying.
Win or lose, learn to change and never fear failure.
Friday, March 27, 2009
check out this link with the kid who has all the moves!
http://sports.yahoo.com/nba/blog/ball_dont_lie/post/Video-Introducing-the-Celtics-new-dancing-phen?urn=nba,146237
http://sports.yahoo.com/nba/blog/ball_dont_lie/post/Video-Introducing-the-Celtics-new-dancing-phen?urn=nba,146237
Sunday, March 22, 2009
School's probably the tougest thing I've always had to go through but I think it's not the studyiung that kills me, it's the exams. I love to study. I'd read and watch science stuff and maybe go back to basics. I watch Mixed martial arts because I want to study a lot of stuff.
Maybe I do need to go back to basics. Start reading a book on my line of work or interest. Start working on myself and remake my thinking. i think everyone in my class had a rough time and I tell them not to worry because school is tough and when you do your best you can't always get what you want but you'll build yourself up.
It's probably the hardest when we give effort and can't match our peers. It's like getting put in your place. I love the people I work with and study with. I couldn't imagine getting through school without them. The lesson is I guess for me is to be just thankful that i got through with no failures. I'm happy that I got two more semesters to work on and that my parents still have confidence in me to excel. I'm happy that Renee had the best grades in her semester because she got a lot of help, I don't think just from me but from herself and all who helped her out. She and my classmates helped me study just by studying with me all week to get my head together. My classmates grades, some good and some same, some not so good. I don't want to elaborate on it.
I'm still not happy though. I'm not satisfied.
I considered Quiton Rampage Jackson as my favorite MMA fighter but the guy who hit me the most was his opponent at UFC 86 Forrest Griffin. Forrest survied a fury in the first round but he came back and went to Jackson's weakness, his foot work and conditioning. He slowed Jackson down and even got a takedown. Forrest was a very different man from his pro fight against Stephen Bonner where he simply brawed with whatever he had. He changed after his KO lost to Keith Jardine and stunned Pride standout Shogun Rua. He was tough but at the same time he improve his game. His capturing of the UFC light heavy weight title against Jackson marked his comeback to the top since his stint of winning the Ultimate Fighter season 1. Aside from that he became a coach, where his protege Amir Sadollah won season 8. Before being Ko'ed by new Champ Rashad Evans, Forrest was winning on the cards and admitted his mistake of letting Evans get the better of him on the ground. i don't think his satisfied.
Frank Mir wasn't satisfied with his ground game against a legend in Brazilian Ju Jitsu Antonio Norguira. So he and Ken Hahn, worked on his boxing and striking and knocked out one of the hardest men in MMA history. This was after he went through a serious motorcycle accident in September 2004 and losing to fighters Marcio Cruz and Brandon Vera. He returned to top form by submitting Antoni Hardwick and Brock Lesnar. But his true renaissance was defeating Norguiera and capturing the interm title.
I don't think I'm done yet. I still have a lot to prove and you guys too. We can make it work. Keep working hard. Be that everyday fighter who come in to the office and works hard and harder everyday and at the end of the day it's just another day in the office with bread on the table the next day. Don't be sad, just be happy and work hard. We'll push through someday my good friend.
Forrest Griffin will fight next at UFC 101 against Thiago Silva. Frank Mir will have a rematch against another interm title holder in Brock Lesnar for a rematch.
Maybe I do need to go back to basics. Start reading a book on my line of work or interest. Start working on myself and remake my thinking. i think everyone in my class had a rough time and I tell them not to worry because school is tough and when you do your best you can't always get what you want but you'll build yourself up.
It's probably the hardest when we give effort and can't match our peers. It's like getting put in your place. I love the people I work with and study with. I couldn't imagine getting through school without them. The lesson is I guess for me is to be just thankful that i got through with no failures. I'm happy that I got two more semesters to work on and that my parents still have confidence in me to excel. I'm happy that Renee had the best grades in her semester because she got a lot of help, I don't think just from me but from herself and all who helped her out. She and my classmates helped me study just by studying with me all week to get my head together. My classmates grades, some good and some same, some not so good. I don't want to elaborate on it.
I'm still not happy though. I'm not satisfied.
I considered Quiton Rampage Jackson as my favorite MMA fighter but the guy who hit me the most was his opponent at UFC 86 Forrest Griffin. Forrest survied a fury in the first round but he came back and went to Jackson's weakness, his foot work and conditioning. He slowed Jackson down and even got a takedown. Forrest was a very different man from his pro fight against Stephen Bonner where he simply brawed with whatever he had. He changed after his KO lost to Keith Jardine and stunned Pride standout Shogun Rua. He was tough but at the same time he improve his game. His capturing of the UFC light heavy weight title against Jackson marked his comeback to the top since his stint of winning the Ultimate Fighter season 1. Aside from that he became a coach, where his protege Amir Sadollah won season 8. Before being Ko'ed by new Champ Rashad Evans, Forrest was winning on the cards and admitted his mistake of letting Evans get the better of him on the ground. i don't think his satisfied.
Frank Mir wasn't satisfied with his ground game against a legend in Brazilian Ju Jitsu Antonio Norguira. So he and Ken Hahn, worked on his boxing and striking and knocked out one of the hardest men in MMA history. This was after he went through a serious motorcycle accident in September 2004 and losing to fighters Marcio Cruz and Brandon Vera. He returned to top form by submitting Antoni Hardwick and Brock Lesnar. But his true renaissance was defeating Norguiera and capturing the interm title.
I don't think I'm done yet. I still have a lot to prove and you guys too. We can make it work. Keep working hard. Be that everyday fighter who come in to the office and works hard and harder everyday and at the end of the day it's just another day in the office with bread on the table the next day. Don't be sad, just be happy and work hard. We'll push through someday my good friend.
Forrest Griffin will fight next at UFC 101 against Thiago Silva. Frank Mir will have a rematch against another interm title holder in Brock Lesnar for a rematch.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
I don't know. Everything's working like clock work now a days. Ain't the same as school. Every number has a different door, work or something. I'm still opening doors and stuff so not really sure what else I'm in for. But this is not me saying what did I get myself into again. But rather it's me saying I should be ready for what's to come because I got myself into this. I'll definitely be ready and well-rested for another week and just keep on working. Nothing else.
Preparing for the worst is hard. It's about draining yourself physically and mentally to just force that untapped power in you. I get drained a lot and often times, that extra tank runs empty but I think I got a lot more in me. I ain't giving it my best. I gotta push the pain on myself to get more.
It was pretty much a smooth week which is good news cause it warmed my mind and strength up. I work well with my partner and it's been very smooth so just gotta get ready when big things come and take it day by day.
I'm trying to get at least 7-8 hours of sleep just to recharge my batteries also so that I fully exploit that extra tank I have. I may not have it for the next few weeks but if you can really do an extra mile or extra 10 push ups you can really fill that extra tank up. I got it while rock climbing. I realised I could just breath harder and I can feel it getting into me and pushing me a bit more. I even yell sometimes just to get it out. Nothing better, nothing less of my best for what I do. Just work hard and make no excuses.
Funny: My friend said she heard me on the bus and knew I was there. Nope, she didn't see me, she HEARD me. She only saw me later when I was coming out. hahaha
Preparing for the worst is hard. It's about draining yourself physically and mentally to just force that untapped power in you. I get drained a lot and often times, that extra tank runs empty but I think I got a lot more in me. I ain't giving it my best. I gotta push the pain on myself to get more.
It was pretty much a smooth week which is good news cause it warmed my mind and strength up. I work well with my partner and it's been very smooth so just gotta get ready when big things come and take it day by day.
I'm trying to get at least 7-8 hours of sleep just to recharge my batteries also so that I fully exploit that extra tank I have. I may not have it for the next few weeks but if you can really do an extra mile or extra 10 push ups you can really fill that extra tank up. I got it while rock climbing. I realised I could just breath harder and I can feel it getting into me and pushing me a bit more. I even yell sometimes just to get it out. Nothing better, nothing less of my best for what I do. Just work hard and make no excuses.
Funny: My friend said she heard me on the bus and knew I was there. Nope, she didn't see me, she HEARD me. She only saw me later when I was coming out. hahaha
Thursday, February 26, 2009
quote Quinton "Rampage" Jackson in training in the UK for his upcoming fight , "Someone's gonna pay for making me train so hard in the cold, I really don't wanna be in my opponents shoes when he faces me."
People do a lot to get where they are. Jackson promised that through all his hard work he's been keeping his anger in store. When I train, I don't have any enemies in mind. When I study, I got my grandparents in mind because they gave so much to us. When I work my mind and body, I have my family in mind because I know I gotta be strong. Nothing else says this is what I need to work for when I have my family in mind. I start attachment march 9 so I'm marking that down. During this week, I'm gonna be focused in getting in shape and gettin my mind ready and working.
No Holidays this time. Got to go ut with friends last night and it was great. We ate monster burgers down at Shokudo, a Japanese movenpick, @ Heeren Orchard. It was pretty cool to just go out and have some fun. Talking and shopping are just somethings I really don't do everyday so it's pretty cool. Thanks everyone for a good time.
I really hope I get to see my friends during the 6 months we're appart like a few Saturdays together or so. Till then it's fight hard and stay strong. We'll get something going soon.
Since the other student in my attachment program is going back to school, I'm considering returning for training since our training days are the same. It'll be good to get back in shape while continue learning even if I have to start from bottom or so. I don't think I'll be a professional fighter but maybe semi-pro or at lest get one professional fight just for the experience.
Exams are all over and I'm glad but this fighter's just getting warmed up.
People do a lot to get where they are. Jackson promised that through all his hard work he's been keeping his anger in store. When I train, I don't have any enemies in mind. When I study, I got my grandparents in mind because they gave so much to us. When I work my mind and body, I have my family in mind because I know I gotta be strong. Nothing else says this is what I need to work for when I have my family in mind. I start attachment march 9 so I'm marking that down. During this week, I'm gonna be focused in getting in shape and gettin my mind ready and working.
No Holidays this time. Got to go ut with friends last night and it was great. We ate monster burgers down at Shokudo, a Japanese movenpick, @ Heeren Orchard. It was pretty cool to just go out and have some fun. Talking and shopping are just somethings I really don't do everyday so it's pretty cool. Thanks everyone for a good time.
I really hope I get to see my friends during the 6 months we're appart like a few Saturdays together or so. Till then it's fight hard and stay strong. We'll get something going soon.
Since the other student in my attachment program is going back to school, I'm considering returning for training since our training days are the same. It'll be good to get back in shape while continue learning even if I have to start from bottom or so. I don't think I'll be a professional fighter but maybe semi-pro or at lest get one professional fight just for the experience.
Exams are all over and I'm glad but this fighter's just getting warmed up.
Monday, February 23, 2009
It was extremely tough today. These guys were really trying to KO me in the first round out of IAP. I'm not satisfied with it. I wanna get tougher. So I stayed back and got an upgrade on my brain and attitude; it'll definitely take me to the next level mentally and spiritually. Total reliance on just being mean and tough on myself and work ethic.
I really liked what I saw in the UFC 95 card. Everyone kept saying how it was gonna be a boring fight with unknown fighters or no top contenders and that the main event would be two sluggsih fighters who weren't really into it with one poorly malnourished and the other not so impressive. I really beg to differ.
Diego Sanchez will be in every fighter at 155 lbs 's Nightmare. Especially Joe Stevenson after getting dominated. Sanchez wasn't tired from cutting weight. From the report, he was really fit. He was his old self, fast and stronger than Stevenson.
Whether winning or losing, I guess it's about what we do when we fall. Picking yourself up is one thing, pulling yourself together is another. I lost a lot of times in life and I admit it. I accept defeat too early because I was really scared. Now a days, I'm a bit more daring but knew that I had to be focused and strong in the tough times. I've grown and learned how much I need to push myself to get to my peak.
When your at the peak, your at your best shape. You know your gonna give it your best on fight day. Fighters after weighing in by losing water; rehydrate and warm up to get themselves together and make sure they're at their peak when they fight. Despite staying in Las Vegas, some won't even stay in a hotel. Instead, they'd continue to train and warm up in some gym with an extra room. They live like soldiers to get their mentality check. So, it's basically sleep, eat, train and finally fight. I sleep, eat , study and test. That's my mentality because I wanna be ready when the time comes for me to be called to fight. I wanna fight. I want to experience that adrenaline rush when you get in the ring and just be in the heat of the moment. It can be a chess game or a test of who can take more KO's. I wanna be at my peak tomorrow so good night guys....
during my one week vacation, I might try some fitness training. Might post them here to see how they turn out.
I really liked what I saw in the UFC 95 card. Everyone kept saying how it was gonna be a boring fight with unknown fighters or no top contenders and that the main event would be two sluggsih fighters who weren't really into it with one poorly malnourished and the other not so impressive. I really beg to differ.
Diego Sanchez will be in every fighter at 155 lbs 's Nightmare. Especially Joe Stevenson after getting dominated. Sanchez wasn't tired from cutting weight. From the report, he was really fit. He was his old self, fast and stronger than Stevenson.
Whether winning or losing, I guess it's about what we do when we fall. Picking yourself up is one thing, pulling yourself together is another. I lost a lot of times in life and I admit it. I accept defeat too early because I was really scared. Now a days, I'm a bit more daring but knew that I had to be focused and strong in the tough times. I've grown and learned how much I need to push myself to get to my peak.
When your at the peak, your at your best shape. You know your gonna give it your best on fight day. Fighters after weighing in by losing water; rehydrate and warm up to get themselves together and make sure they're at their peak when they fight. Despite staying in Las Vegas, some won't even stay in a hotel. Instead, they'd continue to train and warm up in some gym with an extra room. They live like soldiers to get their mentality check. So, it's basically sleep, eat, train and finally fight. I sleep, eat , study and test. That's my mentality because I wanna be ready when the time comes for me to be called to fight. I wanna fight. I want to experience that adrenaline rush when you get in the ring and just be in the heat of the moment. It can be a chess game or a test of who can take more KO's. I wanna be at my peak tomorrow so good night guys....
during my one week vacation, I might try some fitness training. Might post them here to see how they turn out.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
It's really no excuses now. I gotta get my head together. Yeah sure, we can treat it as another day but truly it's about learning how live life to the fullest each day.
When I train or study for major days, I feel I get distracted at home a lot. So I spend more time in school. Believe me, sometimes I rather be back in secondary school or Junior college studying chemistry, physics, mathematics, and social studies. Where were the days that all you had to say was 2+2= 4? Speed = distance/time? salt is Sodium Chloride ? the sky is blue because of the reflection of the sun in our eyes or which light goes through it?
Honesty, I didn't know whether I could handle being an Engineering Student. Being more practical minded, making it through shear work ethic and knowledge power ; but life here has become more complex. Sometimes it's our peers, sometimes it's entertainment. Stress makes us do crazy things.
That ain't gonna happen to me.
starting Wednesday tomorrow, I need to isolate myself. Sleep early, exercise, study, focus, eat right, and work harder.
Diego Sanchez VS Joe Stevenson
Both are at their crossroads. Honestly, they're fighters with gyms invested in them. They get $30K or something every time they fight and not to mention the promotion they get. But despite all these. it comes at a price. Sanchez has given up his sunny side beach training camp in California for a higher altitude in the mountians to train more. Stevenson has isolated himself from friends and family to train in the old desserted area living like a marine and training everyday.
Josh Koscheck trains by living in his gym. He stays in a small apartment with only a bed, some music, a fridge with protein bars and shakes, and some clothes. And he does nothing in there but sleep and eat and train.
Why do I wanna change hairstyles? I wanna change my life. I don't wanna be a lazy fella who sits around and watches the news. Nah, I wanna read my own day and how I can become a better person as I live and how I can be a better student, brother, son, friend and worker.
No excuses now.
When I train or study for major days, I feel I get distracted at home a lot. So I spend more time in school. Believe me, sometimes I rather be back in secondary school or Junior college studying chemistry, physics, mathematics, and social studies. Where were the days that all you had to say was 2+2= 4? Speed = distance/time? salt is Sodium Chloride ? the sky is blue because of the reflection of the sun in our eyes or which light goes through it?
Honesty, I didn't know whether I could handle being an Engineering Student. Being more practical minded, making it through shear work ethic and knowledge power ; but life here has become more complex. Sometimes it's our peers, sometimes it's entertainment. Stress makes us do crazy things.
That ain't gonna happen to me.
starting Wednesday tomorrow, I need to isolate myself. Sleep early, exercise, study, focus, eat right, and work harder.
Diego Sanchez VS Joe Stevenson
Both are at their crossroads. Honestly, they're fighters with gyms invested in them. They get $30K or something every time they fight and not to mention the promotion they get. But despite all these. it comes at a price. Sanchez has given up his sunny side beach training camp in California for a higher altitude in the mountians to train more. Stevenson has isolated himself from friends and family to train in the old desserted area living like a marine and training everyday.
Josh Koscheck trains by living in his gym. He stays in a small apartment with only a bed, some music, a fridge with protein bars and shakes, and some clothes. And he does nothing in there but sleep and eat and train.
Why do I wanna change hairstyles? I wanna change my life. I don't wanna be a lazy fella who sits around and watches the news. Nah, I wanna read my own day and how I can become a better person as I live and how I can be a better student, brother, son, friend and worker.
No excuses now.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Maybe it's a time for a change. Should I shave my head again, make it long and curly again, go for a mohawk or get braids?
I got loads of work and preparation to do. My motivation now is dominance not perfection but dominance. Pure hardcore work and mind set to not just settle for a split decision but for a knockout or a unanimous decision.
Everybody knows what a knockout is. a unanimous decision means all judges scored it your way. Split means only 2 out of 3 scored it your way. I ain't settling for that anymore.
NBA all-star...
I love shaq dancing
I love Kobe and Amare just having fun out there
I love the fact that Lebron James promised a 13 foot dunk
I love basketball no matter how far I go into MMA.
WHy MMA?
easy..."What doesn't kill me makes me stronger"
you have to learn to survive and be the aggressor in life and make things work for you. I may have God but He not asking me to sit around. He's my corner man, coach and He wants me to fight for my life out there.
anyway, tag the board if you got any good hair styles for me....maybe I'll surprise you next week or month....hahaha
Saturday, February 14, 2009
It's Valentine's day so I decided I rather be lonely for reasons only few know. I know I involve or name few names on this blog because I'm a little hesistant about it. I don't wanna insult anyone but I rather thank that person and stuff.
It was a good day to study. Ya know, not a lot happening, my friends are all out, NBA All-star game around the corner and I had to subscribe to the sports channel for $20 to get to watch it but pretty much worth it.
Watching UFC Prime Time, it really motivates me the way BJ Penn and Geogres St. Pierre train for their fight. My favorite parts were when St. Pierre showed his past of getting beaten up and motivated him to learn karate in his basement to fight off the bullies. Years later, he honor his master who passed away by completing in his first MMA fight and winning it. He then went up and down winning some and losing very few (just 2 Matt Hughes and Matt Serra) and from there he would come back stronger , smarter, more disciplined and determined to win the biggest Prize in MMA sports, the Welter Weight division Championship. He would avenge both losses in dominant fashion. After being taken down by Matt Hughes and losing via armbar submission in the final seconds of round one, he would win the welterweight from hughes and lose to Serra an underdog in the fight. St.Pierre would return to defeat Josh Koscheck and MAtt Hughes and avenge a loss to Serra all by dominating the figh by decision on Koscheck, armbar on Hughes(the very same way he first lost to him) and turning Serra into a knee bag (TKO via knees to the body). Serra would defend his belt against Jon Fitch and BJ Penn ( greasing allegations). Despite the greasing and all, I think a lot would know it was unintentional. why would a champ need it? He had proper defense against Penn and Penn was clearly outmatched in wrestling and stand up.
I believe in hard work. While training St. Pierre built a team of fighters around him and sparred with every one of them, One for each round. It really helped him adapt.
Today, I feel like applying the same technique to my studies. Train hard and smart. You don't become a champ by fighting someone weaker than you but by beating the best. I'm looking at things I don't know the most and improving on them.
I studied a KAP Mac's with a friend today. It was quite alright. I got to work on a lot of things I'm still not completely sold on. Teaching her a bit of mathematics and stuff really got my brain working. I haven't seen her in a while. I feel much better after reconnecting with others. I finally broke my silence. God really helped me out. I can't really get my head together on my own and some things I'm not just ready for.
Even played pool wit her, lost 2 out of 5 i think. you fix that. thanks you helped out more than you know it.
I had lunch with another friend. Rode on the bus home with another friend. Talked to another about trashing someone next time( watch out chook). Learn Muay Thai after exams if I get IAP and if not continue training in school if non-IAP. Up to God now. Hey, if I do end up running around an island, that should be a work out.
I have some stuff I can't type now till next next week. It's preparation week and fight day in 7 days. Time to dominate and just kill the master(my exams) quote Kenny FLorian......
Monday, January 26, 2009
Honestly, I'm not that into Chinese New Year. My friends asked me the other day whether I celebrate it or not. Well, I do because it does bring my family together and you get to spend that quality time you don't usually get. My two younger sisters are still pretty much babies coming to their own but becoming wiser each year. My parents are getting older. I'm reaching my prime. So, why not have CNY, it brings us together.
Leah in church asked me if I was going to visit relatives. My answer was we were going to see some close friends this year. Actually, I have a cousin Almerick who became a scholar here and an aunt as well who has a family here. We have two families who are close friends and have children coming to their own time like my younger sisters.
Maybe I do celebrate it, maybe I'm not too into it. Yeah, it's been a good break but whenever I'm not out, I haven't left the classroom at all. I've been studying hard and concentrating on making my own life this year. Be more Independent and hungier for that adventure and that life we truly desire.
I read Psalm 37 today, and I haven't looked back on the choices I've made this year. Maybe I haven't been able to look at it clearly as well as I did in Jan 1. After all, I was an hour late for the new year, but still I got a lot to work on. A lot to fix. A whole lot to give. I love my family, friends , and God. I don't love my life because of my choices but I love it because of the people in it and how they have changed it. Well, I guess I did celebrate it after all. Gong Xi Fa Cai.......eh ....Happy CNY.
Leah in church asked me if I was going to visit relatives. My answer was we were going to see some close friends this year. Actually, I have a cousin Almerick who became a scholar here and an aunt as well who has a family here. We have two families who are close friends and have children coming to their own time like my younger sisters.
Maybe I do celebrate it, maybe I'm not too into it. Yeah, it's been a good break but whenever I'm not out, I haven't left the classroom at all. I've been studying hard and concentrating on making my own life this year. Be more Independent and hungier for that adventure and that life we truly desire.
I read Psalm 37 today, and I haven't looked back on the choices I've made this year. Maybe I haven't been able to look at it clearly as well as I did in Jan 1. After all, I was an hour late for the new year, but still I got a lot to work on. A lot to fix. A whole lot to give. I love my family, friends , and God. I don't love my life because of my choices but I love it because of the people in it and how they have changed it. Well, I guess I did celebrate it after all. Gong Xi Fa Cai.......eh ....Happy CNY.
Friday, January 16, 2009
I don't think a lot of people realize. You've turned 20. I turned 20 just 3 weeks ago.
5 weeks ago, I earned my drivers license and drove my mom and little sister to the mall with the guidance of my driver. He joked that it would be my turn to wait in the car.
A month ago, I was climbing at Climb On! 08 and was with some climbers from Singapore Polytechnic. 3 weeks after, I'm throwing punches in kick boxing to try my hand at Mixed Martial Arts. Even while climbing I was already interested to enroll in Brazilian Ju Jitsu and Submission Wrestling and watching Fight Quest and Human Weapon.
4 years ago. I was in a whole new world coming into Singapore. My dad rode with me to school just to check out the place, but I haven't really grown up then even though I was feeling ready. I still thought I was someone who needed to prove something, I didn't do well in my entrance so the Vice-Principal challenged me. I fought my authorities in a way but I also fought my demons. I was more fatigued that usual and getting fit was a huge problem. I walked longer roads and longer bike rides. I walked or rode to church , the market, or just for fun. I didn't do movies or shopping. I watched sports all the time and just tried to learn not to mess up.
5 years ago. I was at my mind's prime. I wanted to become a journalist or a detective. I learned to consider all possibilities, explore my chances, and win on my court. making a lot of important choices.....Family becomes my first priority right away.
Today. I've been working out. I feel great. I'm at the best shape of my life and I'm looking to make a good chance and opportunity to help my family in the business. 21, your on your own, parents leave you alone but talk to you once in a while before you leave the house or when you sleep.
You can say all you want to say but when it comes down. It's here. Let's win.
5 weeks ago, I earned my drivers license and drove my mom and little sister to the mall with the guidance of my driver. He joked that it would be my turn to wait in the car.
A month ago, I was climbing at Climb On! 08 and was with some climbers from Singapore Polytechnic. 3 weeks after, I'm throwing punches in kick boxing to try my hand at Mixed Martial Arts. Even while climbing I was already interested to enroll in Brazilian Ju Jitsu and Submission Wrestling and watching Fight Quest and Human Weapon.
4 years ago. I was in a whole new world coming into Singapore. My dad rode with me to school just to check out the place, but I haven't really grown up then even though I was feeling ready. I still thought I was someone who needed to prove something, I didn't do well in my entrance so the Vice-Principal challenged me. I fought my authorities in a way but I also fought my demons. I was more fatigued that usual and getting fit was a huge problem. I walked longer roads and longer bike rides. I walked or rode to church , the market, or just for fun. I didn't do movies or shopping. I watched sports all the time and just tried to learn not to mess up.
5 years ago. I was at my mind's prime. I wanted to become a journalist or a detective. I learned to consider all possibilities, explore my chances, and win on my court. making a lot of important choices.....Family becomes my first priority right away.
Today. I've been working out. I feel great. I'm at the best shape of my life and I'm looking to make a good chance and opportunity to help my family in the business. 21, your on your own, parents leave you alone but talk to you once in a while before you leave the house or when you sleep.
You can say all you want to say but when it comes down. It's here. Let's win.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Somebody just hit me hard. Twice I forgot the same thing. I've been lazy. I've been tired. After pushing through the week, i went broke on the weekends.
I'm broken down and really low. Reasons why I have been silent and inactive, I lost my cool in a way through boredrom not anger. People usually lose it through anger but I really lose it through boredrom.
I just push anger in another direction. Push it into energy. On Thursday, I was really mad I couldn't handle the training as well as I used to do. I was just really mad I was really to break the coke machine. I did punch it. I yelled a bit. I don't know. I don't remember. My shin hurts.
Some of my body parts hurt. I don't know why. Maybe I haven't been working out well or something.
I'm slightly depressed but not completely. Just don't expect me to talk too much on the bus.
I'm really not into it.
If we really can't put it together, we really need depression. It helps us get back down to earth. Look at the mirror and work it out. Depressed but not knocked out. I'll probably be down in school tomorrow sulking a bit and lost.
I actually like being this way. Gives me a lot of motivation to just work twice as hard. I'm not backing down. Ever. D.
I'm broken down and really low. Reasons why I have been silent and inactive, I lost my cool in a way through boredrom not anger. People usually lose it through anger but I really lose it through boredrom.
I just push anger in another direction. Push it into energy. On Thursday, I was really mad I couldn't handle the training as well as I used to do. I was just really mad I was really to break the coke machine. I did punch it. I yelled a bit. I don't know. I don't remember. My shin hurts.
Some of my body parts hurt. I don't know why. Maybe I haven't been working out well or something.
I'm slightly depressed but not completely. Just don't expect me to talk too much on the bus.
I'm really not into it.
If we really can't put it together, we really need depression. It helps us get back down to earth. Look at the mirror and work it out. Depressed but not knocked out. I'll probably be down in school tomorrow sulking a bit and lost.
I actually like being this way. Gives me a lot of motivation to just work twice as hard. I'm not backing down. Ever. D.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Christmas passed without me blogging. It meant I didn't have time to do so. I was really caught up in the moment. So this is what I wrote in my own little time on the plane back home......
"Everybody needs a home. On Christmas day, let’s look back on our memories good or bad. Christmas means that Jesus Christ came to earth born as a baby on one holy night. It’s also only a few days before the start of the new year. Maybe, God put it there intentionally for all of us to have something to love or appreciate each year. We may still have three months to pay the rent, another 3 months of school, another period of tests to come by, a thousands miles from family and friends, but what we’ll always have is a Christmas cheer and a reason to be thankful that we have a short one day where we don’t have to work and can sit and enjoy a home cooked meal. To me Christmas has always been about giving wherever I am, whether with family or friends I always wanna give people a reason to smile or be happy this year. It’s not easy to find something to smile at or be happy about but it’s always worth the while to make someone’s else day. When people say it’s the thought that counts, just look at a friend’s face when he or she gets a greeting or present for you. Our present may be cheap or something we didn’t want but the thing is that this person cares for you and wanted to let you know that your special this year.
Every Christmas it feels great to be able to have a simple party for all the workers at my dad’s factory, we have our toys and snacks for the kids and money and food for the parents. It just feels great that you could give something this Christmas. I can never forget the faces of orphans I visited a few Christmases ago when we went over and had a huge party for them. There five orphans who lived in the school while the rest lived on the streets. I saw some kids who even saved their food for thier parents. Some of us willingly gave up ours to give them something to eat too. It’s always a great to give.
I just wish that every Christmas we can make someone happy and that would make my day to make someone feels special. Look around you, it’s Christmas, something would be wrong if everybody didn’t do anything. Our family wants a little attention from us to just be with them. A few friends just want a little “hello” and “how are you?” to make their day. People don’t know it but they always want to be remembered on Christmas day. I remember every person I met this year and thank God and pray that I can make them smile by letting them know they’re remembered even if they don’t remember me I know my family and close friends remember me and that’s enough for a Christmas cheer. Merry Christmas everybody."
Yeah it's a little late but I've been gone so long I just thought well might as well post it.
It's never easy to win. Neither is it easy to ever end the year on a good note. You'll never know when your gonna have the time of your life, you'll never know when your gonna fall in love. You'll never know when your gonna fail, you'll never know when your gonna die ; but, you can still enjoy life as it goes by having the time of your life everyday even on a bad day, you know you can never give up on something you haven't given a chance to grow on you, you know that you can make someone happy through love , you know you have a family that loves you and cares for you, you know that your gonna die someday but God's gonna decide on that day and I leave it to him.
I'm happy where I am now. I wanna travel the world. Everytime I look at someone's else blog they say they wanna do this and that. I never did take a piece of paper and write it down.
1. Love God and my family and my friends
2.Travel around the world even if it's just a few days.
3.Get a job that make people happy even if they don't know me.
4.Make my dad and mom proud even if it's just seeing me graduate or get my diploma.
5.Reach high for a degree.
6.See my younger sisters become more successful than me.
7.Keep in touch with friends even after school's way over and when we begin our careers.
It's what I most want right now......not an I-pod, I -phone, a pair of shoes, a million dollars......just this.
My New Year's Resolution....get hungier.
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